A different place....

If it were before, i'd be sad. But now, after all that has happened, I wouldn't care less. Just saying that I've done all that could be done. Now, I've reached this point where I can just keep moving forward without tripping myself over. This is goodbye I guess, you know where to find me.

Need...

...some will power.

Goodbye Sydney

XD

Two days~

Hey everyone, sorry for the lack of updates as of late. Been busy with the big move. That's right, I'm officially homeless now, living out of my suitcase, sleeping on the floor of my friends living room. It was a great struggle, a night of deprived sleeping packing and hauling big ass furniture and cleaning and scrubbing.

But we got it all done eventually and we parted ways with our coogee house and our memories there. We were sad to leave it, and proud to have cleaned it up so well. Well... we 'thought' we cleaned it up cuz apparently it was not enough for our landlord.


Ah anyone remember where the clip above came from? heheh, anyways my landlord called me the next day, and I thought she was calling to say I forgot something. Oh such hurtful words she said to me, to the extent that I almost cried that day. Yeah, I'm a pussy. We didn't clean the house well enough, "the house was an absolute crock" "I am very dissappointed with you boys, expected so much more from you"

Man, thought about that phone call the whole day. Never had anyone yell or scold me like that before. Spoiled my mood, and didnt even get to enjoy my trip to paramatta yesterday. Well, todays a new day, went over to the landlords place just now, but she wasn't home. Made my apologies to dear old archie, offered our help to clean up whats left. I feel alittle better to apologize in person. I felt more sorry for Archie (the landlords husband) than angela (landlord).

Now I'm at the UNI library, trying to print my etickets. My mood has lifted a little, hopefully i can enjoy my last few days here without worrying about my landlord and the coogee house. Gonna go to the zoo later, and hang around it the city. Can't wait to get hooome.

Home soon...

Today is my last day of studying, tomorrow is my last xam. My heads in the clouds and all I can think of is fooling around, shopping, playing video games, packing, and boarding that plane. But, i have to clear my head of those thoughts for now and concentrate on well testing... 60% of the course. Ughhh....

Well, coming home means I have to do attachment and suddenly I am reminded of what happened last attachment which does not make me look forward to it:

If you guys ever wonder what my life as an engineer will be like, just read dilbert, he describes our life perfectly. Thats it for now, wish me luck! XD

Cravings

I have an exam tomoro, dont judge me. :p

Quelqu'un ma dit

Ah....love the french language, how beautiful and soothing. To quote the Merovingian from Matrix revolutions:

Merovingian: French is the best language to swear in. [stream of curses]
Merovingian: It's like wiping your ass with silk.

A plus tard! <which means I want a plaster

Clarity?

Sorry for the lack of updates, actually made a string of video blogs but my laptop finally died on me and updating from my itouch. My laptop hasn't fully died, just the Internet function, can't connect and cAn't do shit with it except watch series and revise past year PDF files.

Things has been okay for me lately I guess. Still haven't kicked my habit, seemed to have intensified though. I chalked it up to the stress of studying but as my friend so clearly put it: you're addicted. Not proud of myself at all, but it eases the pain. Yeah, I'm being dramatic, but it works for me in some way. I'm not as restless and depressed as before. Instead of crying in a corner, I'm a stoned out Zombie. Which works better? I like the latter, cuz it makes me happy, even if it's just an instant. Yeah I don't know why I'm trying to justify myself here... Am I looking for acceptance? I shouldn't be... God I'm pathetic

Life is moving on for you I guess and I'm happy for you. Just wish you'd tell me what you're thinking instead of leaving me out in the dark like you always do. Protecting me or yourself, I never really know. Tired of being the one who tries too hard, wish you would too. I've done my part.


From my itouch~

Vblog attempt #1

So he was bored...

Side notes:

• Jogging by the beach always leaves me in a sense of awe
• Still keeping up with my random acts of kindness promise. Helped a lost russian tourist find his way to Coogee.
• My mood swings are destructive
• Everyday, you disappoint me more and more.

Kenangan terindah

I'm out of the house and moving! Surprise!!! Awesome action shot of me there trying to get to the frisbee. Well, it looks awesome to me anyway. haha, went to my fourth years beach gathering at Bondi beach this afternoon, had tons of fun. Played a couple of beach games: frisbee toss, volleyball, that slipper game. Sucked at most of them as I do with most sports, but had fun nonetheless. Did the coogee to bondi beach walk before that, saw some amazing beach art (don't have the pictures). Got ganged up on and buried in the sand too, seems people love burying me this year.

Can't believe its the end of the year ready. Had a blast with these guys these past two years, and its kind of sad to know that I'm not going to see their faces anymore next year. We will have these memories as keepsakes I guess. Bittersweet day, a good day well spent. Ended it with a trip to Bondi Westfield where we gorged down on a tub of tropical fruit sorbet flavoured gelato. Would like to wish all them tons of luck after they graduate and move on to bigger and better things.

Familiarity

Found this pic online, it's called conversation between old friends.

I am so grateful for meeting all these faces and warm souls throughout my surprisingly short life here on this world. The sad thing is that the bonds you make with them don't last that lifetime. I guess, that's why family is important to me, regardless who I meet, where I go, what I do, I know there someplace I can go to and someone there who knows me and will take care of me. I can meet a thousand people, go to a thousand places, but I really do appreciate a familiar face, an old friend that doesn't change. Thanks for the familiarity, thought I lost everyone, still glad I've got you somehow.

Unproductiveness

Woke up late again today, still suffering post-HYSYS insomnitisis.... hahah. For those who don't know, HYSYS was the name of the program been using for my big report had a week back, which caused a few sleepness nights for me. Hopefully i can sleep early tonight, really wanna jog in the morning where there is less people and its not too hot.

Took me awhile to get out of bed, it was raining outside, so it was a really good day to stay in. Managed to pull myself out to do some much needed grocery shopping. Finally restocked my chicken supply after 2-3 weeks of cheap takeouts, meegoreng and vegetarian nasi goreng. My wallet took a hit, but at least I have confidence that I can open the fridge or pantry and actually have food inside for once.

Yeah...I'm using google images sorry, kinda lame in my opinion but I don't have any good pictures to upload. Just trying to make the posts alittle more lively. I got pictures, but I have to search for my camera wire, copy them into my hardrive, resize them, contrast it balbalbal, loads of work for little payoff. Google takes a few minutes and a copy of a link and tadaaa, cute kitten, happy feelings, payoff. Simple as that. I can even find an image for me being suicidely depressed:

Ta-daa.

hahah, yeah, cute kittens, don't suite me.

Rain rain rain

Started running again today. It's been ages since I last went jogging out by the beach. The air was wet after the rain, and it was an hour before sunset, so it wasn't hot either. Hearing the waves crash on the rocks and my sneakers making that squishy sound as I tread on the wet terrain is quite soothing to me. I spent a majority of the time walking though, because I could only run for so long. Out of shape and out of breath too easily... guess thats the consequence of filling up your lungs with too much cancer sticks.

I took a new path today and headed as far as the headlands after Gordons bay. That was my second time there, but the sight still takes my breath away. I was thinking of treading on further but it was getting dark. As I ran back down the wooden walkways, I was suddenly reminded of my trip to Belalong back in my high school years. The sound when your foot steps on wet planks of wood, and the wet calm environment. Really wished somebody was there to watch this with me, can't believe that I only have a few weeks left before I move away from Coogee. Should have taken advantage of my close proximity to the beach. Gonna make the most of the last weeks before the move. Maybe can run as far to Bondi the next time.

End of Semester 2 2009

It's been tough but here I am, at the end of semester. Finished off my final report and presentation and all I have left is my final exams. No more UNI, no more sitting in the computer labs for hours till no end, no more waking up early and no more stressing out. I have some time to let my head settle... and thing are certainly clearing up from the daze I've been in.

Still waiting on news of my ticket back home, I wish they'd tell me soon if they're getting it or not. The wait is killing me and I really hope to go back through Singapore this time with my friends. Really can't wait to head home. Don't know what to expect back home after all that's happened, but I just had enough of Sydney at the moment.

Don't know what else to say, I could go all emo if I wanted to, but I don't want to put myself in that mindset right now. Just wanna kick back and enjoy the free time, the little raindrops, the mellowness. Cheers

500 days of summer

Awesome movie, parallels in the movie with my life here and there made me love it even more. Go and watch it. :D

yeah... I'm a sucker for these indie love stories...owh and the soundtrack is awesome too

Tetap ku mencari...

Sampai akhirnya nanti, untuk yang satu, yang memahami apa itu cinta yang memang dluar pndapatanku,

One more month

Barely a month left till my finals and I'm able to go home. Feels like I've been gone for ages... my short visit last time felt so rushed. Hopefully BSP issues me my ticket soon so I can book it, but so far they've been ignoring my messages and email so I'm feeling a little frustrated. I've been missing my family a lot lately and I"m just sick of UNSW and Sydney. Been everywhere, done everything(thats affordable) there is to do in the CBD. Saving up for a grand road trips and explorations next year so there is no point really of me staying. And staying in Sydney alone is such a bummer.

Moving out of the coogee house after the end of my semester finals and putting all my stuff in storage. Really gonna miss this place, so many great memories with my housemates and it was a really great house with the only downside being its distance from uni.

Moving to campus next year, paying almost the exact same amount of rent. It's 5 dollars more per week, but at least its right next to my School of Petroleum where I'll be doing most of my work for final year thesis. Walking home to coogee everyday leaves me exhausted and when I reach my room, I've already lost my mood to do work. Gotta work hard...

Anyways, just felt like talking, surrounded by people, but I still feel so lonely. Don't really know why, my emo side getting the best of me. To whom it matters, happy belated raya aidilfitri, its the same old for me here in Sydney, only diff is that on the 2nd day, went on a road trip to Canberra for the Brunei High Com open house. Loads of fun, Canberra is like a mini Brunei.

Oh yeah, thanks for the birthday wishes, really appreciate them. My facebook was flooded with greets, surprised to see so many. Celebrated my Birthday at my juniors raya gathering. Was kinda expecting them to surprise me with a cake, but still was still genuinely surprised when they turned off the lights halfways through the festivities and emerged with the cake. Really appreciate, best birthday ever, love you guys.

What else is there to mention? Oh yeah, I went on a culture club trip to Australia Royal National Park, 2nd oldest National Park in the world. Great fun, trekking, hiking, canoeing. Didn't take much pictures, so I stole this of my friend Chee Hwa's facebook page.

Some awesome stories to tell bout this place. Makes me more pumped up for my big road trip next year I'm planning. Australia is a great place to explore, just need some mates to share the car rental costs with ya. Hopefully all goes well.

Well, that was nice, haven't uploaded pics here for a long long time. Hooking up the camera to my computer is such a pain. Well, thats all for now, gotta get back to my petrophysics assignment. I'll leave you with Sia and her cover of Britney Spear's Gimme More.

The wet Saturday Morning

Following last weeks series of duststorms, hot dry weather, it was welcoming to wake up this morning and hearing the rain drizzling on the wooden balcony at the side of my room. The cool wet air blowing in to the room brings back memories of home. Can't wait to go back to Brunei...

My fruitless endeavours

More and more I realise what a waste it all was... expected too much from you.

A little push

Now and then I think of those times

and wonder if they were ever real

your smile sincere, your laugh unforced

those fleeting moments where you were not afraid to look me in the eye

those promises...our promises...

I stepped back and teetered on the edge

I closed my eyes and held my breath hoping to sense your warm embrace

but it never came, all I felt was the icy chill of the air as I fell through it

and as i opened my eyes, all I could see was the figure of yourself growing smaller and smaller

until it disappeared over the towering cliff of the past

In the blackness, I thought it was gone, I wished for it to be so...

i blanked out every memory and every wish

I rubbed it out in pure spite

Every ounce of sadness I would have felt in doing so was numbed out with a breath of smoke

Every tiny feeling of guilt lagged far behind as I ran away as fast as my weary legs could take me

Everying was stripped away till only a pale shadow of myself was left

He promised me I would live life the way I wanted, without regret

His promises were the one I trusted, cause though he failed constantly, I knew he was trying

and that was all that mattered, all that I could care for right now...

You may abandon me, step on my pride and spit on my sincerity

I will live as I am

A dog licked me

and the first thought on my mind was: "hm...dapat ku buka puasa ni!"

Lol, I was talking to my landlord's daughter who was taking out bear (thats the name of the dog) for a walk. Bear decides it would be appropriate for him to lick my bare leg and walk between and around my legs. I was trying so hard not to have a look of pure horror on my face while talking.

It was not that bad anyway, the world didn't end. Had do the wash, which was more disgusting. Chee Hwa (my chinese housemate) couldn't help smirk while watching me pour soil mixed water all over my leg. Me and bear have a good history of annoying each other. He would wake me up early in the morning by barking uncontrollably. I would get him back by banging on the window while he sleeps waking him up. Now I have to think of a way of getting him back for licking me...should I lick him back? Nah...too weird.

Midterm Break

Today is the first day of my 10 day mid-sem break. Up till yesterday, my life has basically been a blur of lectures, non-stop assignments and tests. Fasting month has also taken its toll on me making it much harder to concentrate in uni and making me exhausted by the end of the day, I don't get to recap on the days uni work or get ahead in my assignments and night studies. I really wanted get back to my prayers, and neglecting them during Ramadhan makes me feel even more worse about myself. To top it off, my three month allowance is already a week overdue, and I am in debt to alot of people, most espcially my mom. It kills me inside that I have to borrow money from my parents when I know they really need it back home. So up to this point, I have been exhausted, unfufilled and depressed.

Its been harder this time as I have pushed myself away from those I'd usually go to when I need support. I don't know if its pride or stupidity, but I can't make that first move anymore. Those days where I would eagerly jump to the beat and pursue what I wanted is all but a distant memory. I just hurts too much sometimes when I try too hard. There's that feeling at the back of my head that makes me so scared and so afraid that things will fall all around me again. I self-analyse myself and my faults to a point where I would just break down. I need this mid-sem break not just to catch up with my missed work, I also need to catch up with myself. Running around in too many directions, I need to find the right one and stick to it.

I want to also apologize for everything I've done wrong up to this point. I'm sorry, I wish I was a better person, I wish I could make everything right again if they ever were right in the first place. Love you guys.

Lecturing

I am now in my well testing lecture trying to take in what happened in my well testing class that just finished.

Let's see, I could do the questions which I studied for, but could' t do the questions on the topic I skipped. Hmm... Conclusion, studying actually works. Bwah

Been checking my bank account every 5 mins. Allowance was supposed to come out 2 days ago... Cana in sungkai ni? Rumah knda bmakanan, LOL. Die lah...I wanna go back to Brunei and remember what it was like to eat actual food,

Well Testing...

is a bitch.

Derive radius of investigation and list out the reservoir and fluid properties which determine it.... blablabla....

How much is this worth....10%.... meh....

Quiet Nights

Reclusiveness has taken ahold of me lately. Can't even bother to go on msn sometimes, and barely talk to my coursemates as much as before. Something in me is just sick and tired... I feel like I can't be myself in front of these people. I can't believe I'm at a point where I'm embaressed and ashamed to be who I am and not knowing why exactly. I'm turning into one of those people who is so self-concious around people. Where the hell did this vulnerability come from?

I don't know, dissappointment in myself and in people I guess. Nothing is ever good enough. Funny thing is that, when I reach home and sit around with my housemates, that nagging feeling just fades away. I feel safe here in the Coogee house. No one judging you, looking down on you, throdding on you and using you and throwing you away like used toilet paper. That's why this is my home I guess, this is why I still live here despite the high rent and tiring distance from uni. We all need a little love sometimes.

Mindless babble to sooth my overflowing mind, please bare with me. Nights here are peaceful, and quiet. Sometimes too quiet for my tastes. Back in Brunei, I'm used to the TV loudly playing from the living room and my cousins running around. Occasionally, my housemates make a ruckus, and that usually puts me at peace. I've learned to get through those quiet moments though, learned it quite recently too. What happens is, when it gets too quiet, I start to think too much and it'll take me ages to sleep. Restlessness seems to be cured by calm controlled deep breathing. Learned it through yoga of all things. Started doing yoga at Fitness First (putting that expensive gym membership to use) and its more about breathing than bending yourself in unimaginable positions. I incorporated that during one of my restless nights and it worked well.
It was a weird thing to do but...hey...it worked..... thank you yoga.

Anyways, to sum it up, I hate myself, I have trouble sleeping, I'm doing yoga. hahah, pretty weird post. Sorry ;)

This woman's work

Daymn.... lawa brabis this song:

Lyrics Maxwell lyrics

Was watching the so you think you can dance American show on TV few mights ago. When they performed the dance to this song, it was soo lawa maan. It was for breast cancer awareness or sumtin. Lawalah, search for it on youtube. I know, what's a guy like me doing watching so you think you can dance. hahah, boring wah! Oh crap, australian idol's on, see ya. =p

Ah, L'Amour

This video explains alot! LOL

Updated

Heya guys, what your seeing are the first two pages of my comic GOTS. Posted it to accompany the new look of my blog. Decided to make this more of an art blog, express myself through drawings and comics seems to make me feel alittle better. hahah, cheers.

Room service please

Last semesters mess still occupying my study space. I actually got lots of free time this semester, but surprisingly still haven't managed to clean up.

Haha, so much on my to do list right now. As evident by my stagnant blog space. I'm just really lazy. I really need to upgrade the look of my blog. Haven't changed it in ages. Gotta pick up my tablet and start creating again. So many haven'ts and gottas. Lol

Keeping myself busy and have to concentrate. Not gonna fall down this time. ;)

AVATAR THE LAST AIRBENDER!!!!

Booya, the teaser finally came out and its looking great. The music is dead on with the series. M.Night is gonna do a great job adapting this!

Three more!

3 more xams and I'm freeeee!!!! BOOOOYAAAAA

Pocohontas is hot

To the disney fans out there, found this on my daily youtube procrastination cycle. The original ending for pocohontas animated movie. Pretty cool, and wondered what it would look like if they actually kept it in the original release.

Oh and yeah, i think she's hot. The hottest disney character ever... Angelina Jolie's lips.. I wanna bite it. hahahah

Dearly Beloved

Man.. watching this guy play is so inspiring..




Ada feel wah ya main atu! Wish I could buy a piano and learn to play but its waaay too expensive. Me and my friend stumbled upon a music instrument shop while wandering around Pitt street yesterday. It was huge shop filled with classical and modern instruments. Hearing all the other customers testing it out those instruments was really cool.

We went to the grand piano section and looking at the price for one is like... *dies*

Beauty costs ya I guess. hahah

It's GEO...got it memorized?

I am a lover of geography, but I am not a lover of Petroleum Geography.... I can't tell you how much I despise this course. It's not because of the content, there is some interesting stuff in there, but if you have a sucky lecturer and an even suckier assessment system, you'll feel the same hatred I am feeling. HE expects us to memorize all that and write them out in less than two hours. It's a fucking joke.

Ah well... just can't wait for this to be over so I can get back to studying the more important stuff. Wish me luck you guys.

Assalamualaikum

Getting my head around

It's late at night... I've been neglecting my studies as usual. Some habits die hard I guess no matter how hard I try to change myself. I just watched the season finale of Ugly Betty, and man... I actually turned the tube on to cheer myself up with some laughs but it ended up with me feeling more down. Season finale was a tear jerker... no I didn't cry, but that last episode hit so many emotional strings, close to the heart, I just felt so... blah...

It was all about changes, making tough decisions, the people you love and the life you choose for yourself. First of all habits die hard, and I get into this rut where I spiral into this place where I know I shouldnt be. Yeah, you heard this all before and I'm repeating myself. I still never did find my even footing. The state I'm in now, all the footholds have eroded off and I keep slipping of the edge. Methaphors... poetic ain't it?

I'm not really sure what I wanted to say here. I'm a jackass... I'm fucked up loser who doesn't deserve shit. I"m surrounded by all these people but I just feel so worthless around them all, I still feel so alone in the end. I don't know if I'm angry at you or myself. I keep hoping, I end up with nothing and the cycle repeats it self. I changed myself to be better with no success and still end up pushing everyone away.

Ugh...my brain hurts...

Gift of The Sun - Another Day

The beauty of study period, including my lack of commitment to actually study during study period, is the amount of free time I gain. Getting so much free time is usually quite a shock for me, especially after such a busy semester, that I get overwhelmed by it. Overwhelmed by free time you ask? Yes, I get overwhelmed to such an extent, I end up doing nothing because I spend most of the time contemplating what to do.



Yeah I'm a weirdo, but I did manage to get one thing done, and it's one of my works for my comic - Gift of the Sun:

Click on the picture to see full view. It turned out so much different than I initially planned, well that's what happens with most of my plans anyway. I hate it when that happens, that's why I rather do things spontaneously which can be annoying to some people but is more enjoyable and fufilling. Today, my spontaneous activity will be actually showering (first time in two days) and go to the library and study. Not exactly spontaneous and fun but.... well, at least I'm doing something today.

Exams are still my top priority, gotta do something right this time. Assalamualaikum

*edit*

Guess my fullview of the picture isn't working, lol. Just click on my deviantart button on the below right to view it. Owh yeah, also forgot to tell you about these set of videos:

Really beautiful work if you ask me. This guy uses sounds and clips from the movie and mixes them. REally creative and it really sounds so magical. Listening to his clips the whole time I was drawing and painting. Check it out ayte!

One down!

Booya, one down. Celebrate with overpriced chicken in chili that wasnt that nice. XD

First Xam

GEOS xam in an 40 mins, gwaaa

Winter supplies

My very large care package finally arrived today. Snacks and underwear. Thanks ma, love you all so much. <3

Super sandwich

Kes malas masak.

I am destroying myself...

I shouldn't take second chances so lightly...
I am ungrateful...

I never learn from old mistakes...
I am jealous...

I avoid seeing my true self...
I am scared...

I think too much
I am destroying myself

Fight against time

Deadlines, tests and exams non-stop. Feel like my brains gonna explode...

Sydney or Bust

Finished all our stops, done the final quiz and now on the bus ride back to sydney. Its been great, part of me doesnt want to go back just yet. Gotta face my fears but after everything thats happened., id think having the title coward is no problem with me. Im fucking human, a very worn out one.

To greener pastures

Beautiful morning of our last day of the field trip. All our bags are packed, left our campsite and heading to our final few stops before heading back to sydney.

The picture above is from my first stop. This is my first time experiencing good warm sunny weather during the trip. It complemented the surrounding scenery. We're studying the formations outcropping at the coast. Next to us was a huge empty field and to our suprise grazing cows appeared near the end of our study. Cute furry things.

Into the swamplands

On the way to our last stop for today. Been to climb waterfalls and waded through swamp. Interestingly enough, the swamp is a huge skin of peat(dead organic matter) floating on water. You would sink in if you didnt take care of what you're stepping on.

As a sovenier to my swamp visit, i'm now drying out my wet socks and resisting the cold creeping up my soggy jeans. Having fun, wonder what's next?

Carrington Falls

One of the stops today. Carrington falls, landform resulting from million of years of weathering and erosion of Sydneys massive hawkesbury sandstone formation. See, i know some shit!
Lol, its massive formation, the valley was left behind, simply impressive. We hiked right to the top of the waterfall. Keep thinking of those movies where people jump of the falls. This is eye candy for me.

Field trip dy 3- jamberoo

Its early morning and we're driving up (and down) the familiar winding hillside roads of jamberoo. Not going to jamberoo park this time though, gonna be studyin some soil structures on the jamberoo hillslopes. Yeah, soil is interesting!

At breakfast overheard a conversation and found out a guy actually dropped his eng degree to pursue geology bcoz of this awesome life altering trip. I envied him... I wish i had that option. Only have today and tomorow and its back to black gold trade on monday, effin great.

Ill post summore stuf l8er. Cheers!

Exploring the world

Posting sumtin while theres still reception. Currently on dy 2 of my geos field trip. Been goin down south the coastlines of sydney, drudging the wet n cold weather. Its been great so far, loving it. Too bad this isnt wat im doing for a living. Siigh, a little taste of my geologist dream.

Scenery here is absolutely beautiful and breathtaking. Cant upload all photos at once, limitations of using a phone. Ill upload bits and pieces when i can. Two bars left, better upload this nw. Lol, cheers!

Rindu

Still cant grasp why im doing this and why its so hard.

If only

Nuff said

jaga, ada babi mlintas

STOP STARING AT ME, I HAVE NO MONEH FOR YOU!!!

Uh oh

I think i left my earphones in the pockets of my jeans...which is now going through a spin cycle... CRAP

Keeping warm

Brought back my heater frm storage at hafizs plc after my tempory fan heater decided it rather be an airconditioner. Gonna pull an all nighter for res eng, hopefully i can stay awake.

Study smart

Xams in an hour and 45 minutes. Takin a break frm studyin nw. Right now im feeling like i just want to get it over and done with. Sad thing is i still have to study for res eng, petroleum geology and geos sedimentary environments. Also have a stupid online quiz due after that and a petroleum economics test and two assignments, two presentations due the week after.

Call me crazy but i think this is kinda fun. Gotta keep challenging myself like the old days. Bwahaha, im going to destroy you and show you my true potential.

The rainy mornings

Such a lazy morning today. Cold and wet, the ideal sleeping conditions. Still contemplating whether to skip lectures or not. Maybe i'll just come a little late. Yeah, wait for the rain to let up. Heheh

Im wandering why im worried about what you think of me. I dont know why i care for such self centered self righteous ass kissers. Am i hurt or just tired of trying too hard? Thinking about it makes my blood boil.

Right now, i just waot to think nothing of you.

DOTA nerds

9pm, ceic revision going suprisingly well. My housemates filling their time playin dota. Time which could be better spent cleaning those dishes in the sink. Lol

Trying not to ditter from my Study mode but my heads startin to get muddled up again. Have to take the advice my friend passed on just now. Dont think too much and just go for it. Ya Allah, give me strength.