Saturday, October 27, 2007

So much more...

A short weekend post for you guys. Managed to survive this week of non stop tests and assignments, only got my last assignment to do which is a MATERIALS group project. Then its one last week of school followed by study break and exams. Not to mention the additional packing and searching for a new place. Yeah, I'm moving out of my apartment after living there for...7-8 months? Yeah, its been swell, but me and my housemate opted to moving for a place much closer (and of course cheaper) to our UNI before the year ends. It's really expensive to keep this apartment over the holidays and much more cheaper to move out before the peak season next year. Love our place now, but it really is for the best. Will post up pixs of the apartment one last time before the move, hopefully. Anyways, thats all for now, love you guys and catch you later. Cheers

Thursday, October 25, 2007

LION KING ~RAAAAWR

Those who know me well, knows I'm a disney and cartoon freak. Anyways, finally found this vid, the lion king broadway show at the Tony Awards 1998. It's so beautiful, that people, is called art and creativity. Totally different from the original academy award winning disney cartoon. It been playing for over 10 years, first just at Broadway Times Square, then around the world. Sadly, I missed the Australia show which last performance was last year. But, on another note, its still playin in London, so I still got a chance to see it. Hahah, finally a 'REAL REASON' to go to London next year, hopefully it'll still be playin then. huhuhu :P

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

Insignificant

The first time, I tried to do it, I couldn't, I gave up...

The second time, I tried again, I failed again, I gave up...

Hundreth time, just gave up...

Look at those words, and you'll see me and this stupid situation I put myself in. Time wasted, all this fucked up time I wasted just trying something I can't do. It drains me inside, and I just wanna crawl into a hole and dissappear. You make me feel insignificant and it kills me...

Fuck...

Monday, October 22, 2007

The start of the another week

Aitess, another week, and I already feel the the pressures coming on. hahah, all and all, I feel ready as the weekend was well spent. The first year students organised a Raya gathering at yummyfish's place yesterday and it was loads of fun. Hmm...even the fact that I FAILED my midterm for MATS course hasn't affected me yet. I dunno, maybe I'm still sleepy. Sigh.... well, it'll hit me sooner or later, but for now I'm gonna enjoy this cloud I'm floatin on. Cheers


Friday, October 19, 2007

PG IS SHORT-FORMM!?

Mr Lennox: (To me and Nisah) Both of you have the longest names in the whole group, I can count them!
(Lennox starts to count, Nisah and me laughs)
Me: Oh, did you know that PG and AK are in short form?
(Lennox wide-eyed, stares at my name; "Ak Mohd Hadee Pg Hj Yasfadillah")
Mr Lennox: (Laughs loudly) IT'S SHORT FORM!? You guys do this on purpose to annoy us don't you?!

heheh, that was part of a funny conversation that nisah and I had with my GEOS lecture, Dr Paul Lennox, before having to take our test. He's a really funny guy this lecturer, though sometimes annoying and intimidating, he's still memorable and an okay guy, like dear old Yilderay and H.Salisch of Session 1. All three of them have their own catchphrases, which my batch mates love to make fun off.

Lennox : ..... rightiooo
Yilderay: SooOOoOoooo.....
Salisch: ......do you get me?

Owh.... Lennox sent me an email just now. hahah, cam sengaja ia buat PG atu after the morning's conversation. Usually in his email, he addresses me as Hadee.

LENNOX'S EMAIL:


Dear PG (Hadee to his friends),

You scored 83% for the map test........well done,

Paul

-- Dr Paul Lennox
School of BEES
UNSW
Sydney 2052

Owh....i scored 83% on my mapping test which is AWEEESOOOMEE, HAHAHAHAHAH

All hail the weekend! Woohoo

As quoted from the dorky yet everybody likes him hero - Hiro Nakamura; "IYAAATAAAAAA!!!".

It's Friday, the start of the weekend, WOOHOOO. A little break from structured timetables and time squashing hecticness of the weekdays. Still gotta study and do assignments, but hey, at least I can sleep and wake up when I want to. Let's see, my mood is good ryte now cuz I just did my GEOS MAPPING test and I thought it went pretty well. Don't know for sure, but I definately will pass, AMIIIIN! This happy mood bubble won't last for long though, a few hours later I'm gonna have my MATHS MAPLE test. What is that you ask? It's doing mathematics on a computer test. Sigh.... I didnt think that anything was able to suck the fun out of using computers, but heloooooo maths. Haha totally didnt revise properly for that, my ozzie friends can quote with me on that. XD so my cherished readers, pray for me that I'll do well this semester. I reaaaaaally would appreciate it.

Ah....what else did I want to say. Owh yeah, gambar ku ada dalam surat khabar. huhuhu, inda plang nampak benar, a bit of my head, but hey, that's one sexy head no? Also, I know Mahirah's gonna flame me for this, ada dalam RanoAdidas jua, banyak lagi tu.. hahah, loving the free publicity. What? You think I'm vain? Huweh...your just jealous. hahaha. And I don't have to post much pics as all the links are at RAno and the bass-box webby. I'll post this one pic though, cause it shows of the semangatness of hari Raya in Sydney. What do you think?



Bah, ku kn makan dulu and belajar...ugh...MAPLE. Hope everyone anywhere is doing well. Miss you all loads, selamat raya and studyingg. Cheers, +d440+ OUT!

P.S; Lawakn my new layout? I'm awesome, tell me I'm awesome!!! IYATAAAA

Thursday, October 18, 2007

huh...raya?

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, Maad Zahir Batin, Eid Mubarak and please forgive for all past wrongdoings to all Muslims. Another overdue post so let's just get on with it.

RAYA-ing in SYDNEY.
What's the difference with Raya in Sydney and in Brunei? Well for one, there's no annoying raya songs playing everywhere, except for Bruneian homes of course. There's no last minute wasting money shopping. There's no pressure to look good in front of 'certain' people. In short, Raya here is way toned down, in fact it is barely significant. Hahah, what would you expect being in a foreign country? I'm just surprised of the strength of the small muslim community here. Though small, it's still good to see all these many different people take time out of their day to get out get together to celebrate this day, pray and so on. All you need for a good Raya is, good spirit, good food and good people to be with. In Brunei it feels forced somehow, a little fake and more of a chore, so if some of you guys are wondering why I'm not getting so teary eyed or semangat for Raya, those are the reasons. Yes, I miss my family and friends, but there's no use repetitive complaining, it get's so annoying sometimes.

Daymn...blogger won't let me upload any pictures. Sorry you guys, hahah, maybe I'll post them at KITA SEDUNIA webpage. Just remembered I havent even updated my links yet. Huhuhu, need to update my layout too, getting bored with it. Alas, busy times lay ahead for me. So don't expect any burst of life from me until December. I got assignments and tests all through the next four weeks, followed by my finals. I'm trying so hard to study and do this all a little better. This course, though a pain in the arse if I have to say it, still is what I have to do. i don't think there's anyway to go back and change my choices...is there? Hahah, well, looks like I'm stuck. I don't what's worse, studying for four years for something I know nothing or have no enthusiasm about (I don't like oil and gas, more of a renewable energy person), or the fact that my whole like has been figured out during and after UNI. A desk job? A fucking desk job? god, I still dread this for some reason. What keeps me going? Well...my family I guess, that's the only reason I'm doing this. So they can lay off me for once. Pressure brabis lah....

What I wish for: People who appreciates people more, More time in a day, a world without Maths and chemistry, other than that, cheers, and see ya when I see ya.

Friday, October 05, 2007

THE SUNYINESS

Hey hey hey, Hadee here with a new post. Well, this is overdue, but happy fasting everyone. Phew, a lots been happening and I've skipped over a few events. Yeah, I went to the kunjung Ziarah thing in Sydney with his majesty, yeah I got the "let's not talk or tell anyone anything but hey people still found out" ampau, yeah i know the dirty secrets of the ampau giveaways where some people got even more of surprise if they're higher up in "the list", hey yeah, i went to the SPE dinner with a new fucking expensive wear once in a lifetime tux, hey yeah, I celebrated my birthday and my friends threw me a surprise party before I left to brunei, yeah, I went back to brunei and I've been in Brunei for almost two weeks. I would have posted stuff about all these things but i guess most everyone I know and are close to me know full well of all these stuff already. I dunt think anyone else reads this blog anyways.

I'm home in Brunei, yeah i got homesick and went home, my mom missed me. hahah, I am loved. Well, been feeling the kesunyiness in Sydney and thought things would let up more if I went home. But, now that I'm home.... well the kesunyianness didnt let up. hahah, probably got a little worse. It really nice to come home and hear this from your grandparents;

"Your home? tsk tsk, why didnt u stay in Sydney, your aunt stayed in UK during puasa and raya, siiiiiiigh"

It's good to see you too... bleagh, ah well, I came back cause I just got really sick of Sydney. hahah, maybe it was fasting month and me missing the wedding and family stuff. Ku balik pun... nothing much. I did get to send Mahirah off though.... got to say goodbye, wont see her again for a few years. Got to see alot of my old friends at UBD. It would have been more fun if it wasn't fasting and they didnt have classes. Hahah, I snuck into Mimi's maths tutorial. barutah ku faham MVT and IVT for calculus. Orang putih have a knack for making things a whole lot more complicated than it actually is.

Wished the UBD lecs can help me with my current session maths. i'm really struggling now, this semester just seems easy. I've been doing badly for lots of my coursework. i'm not good at anything, things are so much different than back in MD and Berakas. I lost support team, hahah, mahirah, pu3, fidz, mimi, rudi, Tak, Charles, Arif, Zaimah, Dini, aziz, all these people arent there to help me in Sydney. It's so hard to keep up it just reduces me and kills me, wondering whether I should have said yes when Sis j called those few months ago. Even right now I have these computing and material assignments which I've been trying so hard to do but I reckon I'd still end up with no results to show that hard work. I keep telling myself I'm not trying hard ENOUGH but.... can I even reach that level?

Sunyiness... the deafening sound of silence is all I wake up to these past few days. All my close friends are all busy or far away and I'm stuck in this rut. Thank god i'm with my family, I feel needed again. hahah, they havent changed one bit since I left, still bickering and doing stupid pointless stuff as always. You'd think they'd change for the better after I'm gone. This is a good and bad thing I guess. Two months of feeling completely useless was cured the moment I came back. Alas, this cant last for too long. Yeah....my mom wanted me to stay for raya, but I can't afford to miss anymore classes. it's my responsibility to come back and do my work. had an argument and she keeps hinting for me to stay, but I always answer jokingly and try not to look her in the face. hahah, I can't bare to see her cry and in the end I always get teary when I think of it too much.

So...I'll be back in Sydney by Monday most probably. I'm staying awake now (it's 12:30 Brunei time) to try to get my mats and computing finished. So far only brushed through a few of my Geography mapping exercises and havent touched my maths tutorials. Sigh...how did I let things get so bad. Wish me luck, and cheers.