Saturday, August 30, 2008

Big step

Today was seemed different, something was shown to me and I took a huge risk and went for it. At the time, it seemed the right choice, the timing perfect. All my worries and doubts could be answered if I went for this. It was thrusted to me and I took it.

Now suddenly, I"m thinking about it. God, why do I do this, when I finally think I did something right, I start thinking back and it just spoils it for me. Now I'm stressed, now I can't concentrate, now I feel like beating myself up and throwing up. I'm doing this to myself, I know, I have problems accepting my actions sometimes. Sigh... and I really need this to work, cuz I can't afford another stupid mistake. I dont think I can handle it.

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