My neck is cramping up

My neck is cramping up...

Condition: Happy, but my neck's cramping up. OUUUuuuCH!

Listening to: Msn mssenger popping up sounds. Ba da dum ba da dum ba da dum.

Lalala, my neck crampin up. Lalal, I have to bend it low cause i cant see the screen. lalala, the screen is low because its a laptop screen. llalaal, The laptop screen is from MY LAPTOP! BWAHAHAHAHAH, I HAVE A LAPTOP! YAAAAAAAAAAAAY

DELL XPS M1210 T5600

I would show pictures but I malas cari. hahah, I'm onlining now on the laptop. So coool, I have sumtin of my oooown, so coool. ITS MIIIINE MIIIIIIINE MIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIINE. hahah, and it has a built in webcam, heeehehee. Me so happyyyy lalalalalalalal .I just wanna hug it and looove it and..... (explicit stuff mentioned here, not for eyes of minors) heheheh. ba ba, back to the blog. yessh, laptop precious, yesss precious. I'll talk about u more later, preciouss.

So dats finally one thing done on my checklist of things to get. hheheh, tomoroow...i mean, todayy, I'll get stationary and crap and oh yeah, i have a friggin dentist appointment in the mornin. hahha, lau gigi buruk dossie abis laaah....abis useeen. When i came home from driving lessons, my mom was secretly packing without my consent. hahah, she was stuffing this rice cooker into a box, and i was all "we cant bring that!" and she was all "why not?" and i was all "because its in its original packing and the senior sed inda payah and they sell it there balbalababla" and she was like "Biartah wah, mama kan bawa, krg kamu inda dpt payah kamu krg blabalbaabla".

Sigh, she's in her in a rush mode mood. Well, dats typical of my parents. Everythiiiiing last minute. no matter how in advance i remind them of crap, they will always do it last minute. If we got the laptop sooner, it would be highly upgraded and get more free stuff. If we bought stationary and crap earlier she wudnt be in such a huffy rushy mood. hahahah, aku bsyukur plang, dey sanggup help me with all this. but, they themselves make it so susah2 aku pun susah hati. XD

Anyways, malamnya, my nini bawa makan and she started talkin about living overseas since my two of my aunts are overseas now in uk. Lecture lecture lecture. She gave me this paranoia about how dangerous and hard living in another country is. Take care of your stuff blabla, becareful of strangers. Yeah, soe of the stuff she did mention was helpful like dont trust yur frens with yur back pin no. But logic kali ahhhh, my aunt atu jua lampau trustin trusting, in the end rugi 400 pounds. hahah, I sound so snobbish but hey, when u mock my intelligence of such trivial things i get offended. my parents lagi eat up everyword she says and relay it back to me. So i have to hear everything twice. First my nini says it, and then my parents agree and says it again so it gets burned into my head. I dont mind gettin lecture but if it gets repeated over and over again, it gets sooo annoyiing. hahah, I have such overprotective relatives, they must really love me. XD

Mwehh, i wanna type more, but i cant stand the neck cramping no longer. my eyes are droopy as well, so i better go now. heheh, nytes to all and gong xi gong xi gong xi ni fa chai (lurus kah? hahha) to all chinese. And to muslims who celebrated valentine's tadi, YOU'RE ALL GOING TO HELL, MUAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH. +d440+ out!

Driving Manual is Fun

Driving Manual is Fun

Condition: So-so


Listening to: Dull computer humming noises.


Well, looks like I missed a day's post again. I noe some people out there dont post everyday, but sometimes you need a routine you know. I'm not the type of guy who likes rules and crap, but if you have no sense of direction whatsoever, you can trip over your own two feet, which I'm trying not to do so much this time round. Bweh, also I wanted to post yesterday because I wanted to mention I drove on the road for the first time!!!


Well, i've drove around before, but not to all the way to beribi and crap. hahah, for the past few weeks, all my teacher ever let me drive to was around the airport lama place and the roundabout closeby. Finally, she let me drive to beribi and I had so much fun. It was scary but it was scary rollercoaster scary. The scary you want and enjoy. hahah


For automatic users, its not a big deal. Yeah, before i took lessons, i like parking my parents car and drving them out of the garage and into the driveway to wash them. Automatic, is so boring. hahahah, just break and accelerate. Manual is like, alert all the time, press this push this. hahahaha, i noe i sound so sakai. Guess this is how everyone feels the first time.... hmmm, dats sound weird. I enjoyed my "first time" , BWAHAHAHAH.


Anyways, for my driving lessons kena extend to 2 hours everyday until my test. Something to look forward to. hahah, almost mastered my parking. Still having problems with my parallel. I can park parallel, but I'm not confident with it. I can tell I'm not confident, because everytime I start to park parallel, I sweat so much, my shirt gets drenched and my glasses for up and get covered with wetness. hahah, need a goddamn windshield wiper for my glasses. i need to get more confidence before the big test next week. hahah its on the 19th and aku blayar on the 21st. I noe, I sound insane, but I just want to experience driving and officially get my license before i leave. a guy can dream, can't he?


Today, was another happy day, because, yeah I got to drive another two hours, but also my grandad bawa aku beli laptop. yahoo! its confirmed now and me gonna picks it up tomorow. Tadi kekedai ambil order sheet. would have ambil it terus tadi, but since the salesgirl was a family friend, I got her to install more extra programs and a better antivirus software. Cant wait to touch it with my own hands. Finally a laptop of my own. I'm so happpyyy. hahahahah, it's a dell XPS btw. Didn't have the heart to ask for a VAIO. Kecian my nini, he's too nice.


Also, met some friends at Hua Ho bunut tadi. Yati, Sandra and Bing Jing. Yati and BingJing works there, and Sandra, like me, was just passing through, heheh. Me and Yati, still the same gilaness from geo class. You'd imagine after her getting a job and me getting a scholar would change us, but it didnt and I'm glad. For some, just changing one tiny thing, changes everything. Bullshit to them lah. Inda pandai hargai what crap u got. hahah, I'm finally starting to see who the "real" people are.


Well anyways, dats about it. I'm trying to not post so much negative stuff as before, too goddamn depressing. Just note that, this is my blog and I can say watever I want. So if you see somethin offensive, just ignore it okay. It's just me expressin myself, jgnth terasa atu. Siapa gigit chilli padi, akan terasa pedasnya. hahah, random peribahasa crap someone taught me. I leave you guys with a few photos now. +d440+ out, a'kum.

Holding on

Holding on

Mood: A little down
Listening to: my constant sniffling. I got a stupid cold.

Unlike this post, this will be purely about Sunday. I need to get back to my system, cuz I'm feeling I'm losing track of things again. When I feel lost, I get depressed so thats what I'm feeling now. A little lost, a little depressed and cold.

Again I wish I could noe what you are truly feeling

I want to peer deeper into those eyes and see the real person underneath

yet again, I don't know if what I see is real

Another illusion, another heartache, Another beautiful letdown...

Today seemed blurry... I don't know why... so much stuff to think about. I'm stuck in a rut. I dont know what I want. Which funnily is what my handwriting analysis mentioned:

Something is incomplete in Hadee's life. He feels frustration relating to his physical needs and desires. Somewhere in his life there is some disappointment, non-fulfillment, and interruption. This is very likely to relate to Hadee's sexual needs.
Hadee has a temper. He uses this as a defense mechanism when he doesn't understand how to handle a situation. Temper is a hostile trait used to protect the ego. Temper can be a negative personality trait in the eyes of those around him.
Hadee is sarcastic. This is a defense mechanism designed to protect his ego when he feels hurt. He pokes people harder than he gets poked. These sarcastic remarks can be very funny. They can also be harsh, bitter, and caustic at the same time.
Hadee's true self-image is unreasonably low. Someone once told Hadee that he wasn't a great and beautiful person, and he believed them. Hadee also has a fear that he might fail if he takes large risks. Therefore he resists setting his goals too high, risking failure. He doesn't have the internal confidence that frees him to take risks and chance failure. Hadee is capable of accomplishing much more than he is presently achieving. All this relates to his self-esteem. Hadee's self-concept is artificially low. Hadee will stay in a bad situation much too long... why? Because he is afraid that if he makes a change, it might get worse. It is hard for Hadee to plan too far into the future. He kind of takes things on a day to day basis. He may tell you his dreams but he is living in today, with a fear of making a change. No matter how loud he speaks, look at his actions. This is perhaps the biggest single barrier to happiness people not believing in and loving themselves. Hadee is an example of someone living with a low self-image, because their innate self-confidence was broken.
In reference to Hadee's mental abilities, he has a very investigating and creating mind. He investigates projects rapidly because he is curious about many things. He gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but he soon must slow down and look at all the angles. He probably gets too many things going at once. When Hadee slows down, then he becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, he must slow down to do it. He then decides what projects he has time to finish. Thus he finishes at a slower pace than when he started the project. He has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. His mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. He can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Hadee can then switch into his low gear. When he is in the slower mode, he can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. He is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.
Hadee will be candid and direct when expressing his opinion. He will tell them what he thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want his opinion, don't ask for it!
Hadee uses judgment to make decisions. He is ruled by his head, not his heart. He is a cool, collected person who is usually unexpressive emotionally. Some may see him as unemotional. He does have emotions but has no need to express them. He is withdrawn into himself and enjoys being alone. The circumstances when Hadee does express emotions include: extreme anger, extreme passion, and tremendous stress. If someone gets him mad enough to tell him off, he will not be sorry about it later. He puts a mark in his mind when someone angers him. He keeps track of these marks and when he hits that last mark he will let them know they have gone too far. He is ruled somewhat by self-interest. All his conclusions are made without outside emotional influence. He is very level-headed and will remain calm in an emergency situation. In a situation where other people might get hysterical, he has poise. Hadee will work more efficiently if given space and time to be alone. He would rather not be surrounded by people constantly. In a relationship, he will show his love by the things he does rather than by the things he says. Saying "I love you" is not a needed routine because he feels his mate should already know. The only exception to this is if he has logically concluded that it is best for his mate to hear him express his love verbally. Hadee is not subject to emotional appeals. If someone is selling a product to him, they will need to present only the facts. They should present them from a standpoint of his sound judgment. He will not be taken in by an emotional story about someone else. He will meet emergencies without getting hysterical and he will always ask "Is this best for me?"
People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Hadee doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

Wierdly, me and Mahirah's analysis kn sama. heheh, great minds think alike. Well, I guess most of its true. I'm sexually frustrated....cool. I prob take the test again to make sure. heheh, once I'm sure, I'll get rid of that "frustration". hahah, apakn.

Yet again, I'm left here in the dark

Wondering whether I've done the right thing or not

My heart is breaking into tiny pieces

and you don't even notice

yet another beautiful letdown....

Hm, I was jobless today. My mom and sis went out ptg and I was stuck at home with my dad. He wasnt in a going out mood and wanted to relax at home. Actually wanted to go to Amal's doa selamat, but no transpot. malas ku kn tanya my dad. Felt kinda guilty.

I feel this way, because thats the person I am

I choose to be this way for you

and yet you dont even notice

as expected, just another beautiful letdown

Since I had nothing to do, I txted the invites for the farewell/reunion bq party thingy. As usual, only one or two people decided to reply. The funny thing is, the people I'm not very close were the ones to reply. All the so called "friends forever" friends didnt even bother to mc. Sigh...i dunno, it kinda annoys me when people dunt bother to reply or mc. Acknowledge lah receive message atu.

I remember we made a promise

You always make me feel hopeful at the beginning

but then u forget that promise

and I cant do anything but stay quiet and feel stupid for believing you

another beautiful letdown

Afternoon, decided to wash my parents cars. All was going fine until I scrape my dads bender while backing out of the garage. Its the huge old plastic bender which cracked and fell apart. Its a small part and I dont know if my dad will notice it or not. heheh2, havent told him yet.

No matter how much crap u do to me

I can never do the same to you

Sumtims I just want to let you know how it feels for once

but I can't and I dunt think I ever will

another beautiful letdown...

When my mom came home and wanted to take me out, my mood was already deterioated. I just couldnt hold myself up. Went to the mall, and I was just walking blankly into things. Was plannin to buy stuff for the big trip. Tapi nada semangat. Palui eh. Today is such a sucky day. Usually I have my music to cheer me up, but I cant find my earphones. The only thing that lightened up my mood was chattin on msn. Lagipun, orang yg ku inda biasa bawa ku crita. heheh, wat a freakin surprise.

another beautiful letdown...

Well, it's officially monday, one more week till I leave. Dunt even noe if i want to celebrate or not. Man, I got a headache now. Wat a f**ked up day.

Peachy just peachy

Peachy just peachy.

Mood:

-Kinda annoyed

Listening to:

-Some people trying to be funny on the Raja Lawak thingy on channel 15. It's annoying me even more...

Well-well. This past two days have been quite...interesting. Friday was the big contract signing. Had to get up early, so that my parents cud get up early to send me. haha, I still dont know how my family is going to survive witout me. I dun have school or work at the moment, but half of the time, I have to make sure they all get up in the morning. I was a bit sully cuz they were so slow. It was rainng again and the whole car ride we had to use aircon, so it was effin cold which didnt help my mood one bit. hahah, I was worried about being late and in the end I was the first one to arrive at panaga club seria for the briefing.

It was raining dat morning, and Seria was flooded. Not tsunami malaysia flooded but just flood up to yur ankles at sum parts. Some people might be shocked but I being one of the sakaiest people in the world was excited. I was squeezing my face against the car window doing the ooo's and aaa's and saying wah, I'm in national geographic. hahah, the cars on the roads were creating these mini waves which were like minitsunamis splooshing around everything. As usual, aryf's favourite animal, the bangau bird thing was there taking oppurtunity of the moistened soil to look for worms and food. Through thick and thin and pouring rain, these majestic white creatures stood it out and searched for their food. I was like....desperate jua stupid bird..heheh

Owh, at first sikit the bangaus. But petang atu kn balik, banyak tia. Of course, I didnt forget u missoure aryf, here's are the pics u majal mminta. hehheh

at first there was one (lau inda nampak, click this pic and look closer!)...

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...and then suddenly in the distance

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DUM DUM DUM

....THEY APPEAR!!! A BZILLION BANGAUS!!!

I have never seen so many dumb effin birds in one place. Took out my camera and started clickin. My hand was stickin out of the car window with the camera clickin away. I bet the guy driving behind us was sayin, "sakai jua anak ani, cam inda pernah liat burung dalam seumur hidupnya!" HEH2, puas ryf? Lau belum puas ati, ko kuar rumah mu subuh2, tunggu sblah jalan raya. Ada ya datang tu. And then u can catch it, eat it, stuff it and do wat ever the hell u want with it. heheh

Anyways back to my main story. I went to Seria for the contract signin blablabla. Pagi kena suroh dtg awal just the scholar students for briefing. My parents, after droppin me off, went to stay at my aunty bab's place. I walked in panaga club out of the pouring rain, blinking stupidly at the security guard. I walked in, looked around, nada orang. Go to the restaurant, nada orang. Go upstairs, nada orang. Ceh...I seriously thought I was in the wrong place. Ku message tia my scholar frens, first c hafiz, orang tutong. Pikirku, since ia tinggal so close, ia samapai dulu. Rupanya indaaaa , still otw. (Btw, I'm trying to sound very sarcastic right now, if u wanna noe how it feels to be sarcastic, read this whole paragraph while rolling our eyes and emphasizing the last word in every sentence, bah go try it. It's fun to be sarcatic, XD ). And then ku message Kak Mas (She's the person in charge of taking care of us) but she inda balas. So I sat around at the waiting area like a sasat person as I always do....yay.

Finally, after wait wait wait, datng tia kengkawan sayer. Now, I will give u a sumarized version of the conversation all of us had when me n my friends arrived: Hai hai, laugh laugh, chortle chortle, awal jua, andangnya, biasa, blablabla, siapa lagi dtg, blablab, blm wah? blablalabla, ko bawa certificate ielts mu (to all those yg belum tahu, I got an 8 on my ielts, second highest score anyone can get. MUAHAHAHAH) blabala, mesti dbwa wah, blabalablab, haiya, lupaku bawa, arghh, hahaha, ko ani slalu lupa, blabalbalb, dmana toilet? blabalblaba, over there? okay thank you, blablbalba, put yur umbrella in that mesin thingy, blablaba, wah so cool, balbalbal, hai kak mas, bablablabalbla, masuk the hall? okay, blabalbalbala...end of summary. Very good ah? I noe, dats how I got an eight on my ielts test. best summary. heheh

So we went in the hall, and it was freezing cold. There were refreshments and a so called breakfast. The drinks were warm but the food was cold. bleaghh. Anywayz, after mamammam, and more bla bla bla ing and after guest of honour yamin finally came, heheh, we started discussin our contracts. Details....so many details....me so malas to type. u wanna noe the details, go steal the contract from shell and read it yurself. hehehh, the important thing is , we gettin our allowance. muahahah, money money money money makes the world go rooooound.

SO after discussin and learning where to stand and sit and wat to do for the contract signin in the afternoon, we left the hall to have our lunch in the kenyang ku eh restoran (Seriously, I forgot wat the name of the actual restaurant is, but I definately noe it sounds like kenyangku eh or sumtin like dat, I made a joke of it, XD). Oh yeah, before we left the hall, we sat around talkin about when and where each of us were gonna have our doa selamats. It was cold, we were all high, so all of us were grabbin pens and papers scribbling things dat we wish were maps and making lame jokes at every sentence. blablaba, pot pot pot, hahahah, pasu bunga, hahahah, u turn, hhahahah blablabla, how do you spell hua ho, hahhaha blablablabla. pusing sini, pusing sana, hahahah, masuk longkang, hahahahh.

Sigh...seriously, I think batch 2007 is the lamest batch ever. hahah, we make the most lamest jokes imaginable, u'd think after three weeks- one month together, we'd run out of stupid stuff to say, but....we didnt. Not yet. hahhaa, hopefully we'll spread the virus to australia. No amount of restricted baggage, qurantines, disinfection, bans, can stop the lameness virus to spread to australia. Eat your heart out strict australia travelling laws! IN YOUR FACE!

EHem, back to the main story again. After the lunching at the kenyangku eh restoran, the guys all left for the friday prayers. It stopped raining by then, but some of the water still havent drained away. An to our unlikely surprise, the area outside the masjid remains flooded. All four of us were wearin smart clothes and we didnt bring and extra. Since the area between the closest entrance and the place we parked the car was flooded, we had to brave through it. Hafiz was the only one who brought slippers and since me, asqa and yamin didnt, we had to go barefooted. heheh, I'm used to walkin barefooted outside of the house, but walking through almost knee deep water to go to the whudhu area and masjid was I admit a cool experience.

one of life's most unique experiences...

Well, after friday prayers (Khutbah was about how valentine's day is haram, in your face lovebirds!!!), running across the hot pavement back to the car, drive back to f19 cuci kaki and pick up zimah, we went back to panaga club for the official contract signing.



CONTRACT SIGNING:

You wanna noe wat happened? Well... to those who watched RTB on friday night shud noe wat happened. If u didnt, go read Saturday's newspaper borneo bulletin or brunei times. Ada article pasal kami tu. Ada gambar ku lagi. hahhaha, malas ku crita, bnyk kn dtype. Also, I smiled like an idiot the whole time the camera was focused on me, fidz wud just loooove to give u the details. heheh

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Okay, now on to Saturday's blog entry. I wud have typed it as today, but I've been typing so long, Saturday has now become yesterday and today had now become Sunday. Get it? Understanding? yesh? yesh? Good.

Well Saturday...yes, a good day. Good day for computers to get fucked up and crash on you and not work anymore. Luckily, before my computer decided to die on me, I checked my mail and found out my visa has been approved. YAAAAAAY! And, also, I got my handwriting analysis thingy just like Mahirah's. You wanna see it? Check the next post, malas ku kn copy paste from my pendrive. Hurh

Frustrated at my computers incompetence, I was glad my dad got up and took me out to go computer hunting. So we went out together, my mom was at work and my sis was at school. First we went to IBB, my dad's bank, which is now BIBD, which he still tot was IBB which I told him was now BIBD formerly known as IBB which he tot the bank where he was in was still IBB which is not because it has become BIBD a joint venture of IDBB and IBB. In short... I still think BIBD has the ugliest logo ever made in the history of human kind. C'mon people! It looks like 666 and its supposed to be an islamic bank. They have the money and access to other peoples money, they can do better. the asses.

Anyways, while waiting for my dad to get the loan form at BIBD bank formerly IBB bank, my mom messaged and told me about the contract signing featured at the newspaper. I jumped out of the car and terus kkedai beli. hahah, I was felt so kembang, the couple in front of me were talkin bout "gambar bsdorang banyak dalam ani, dlm bruneitimes inda banyak". I actually smiled and tot for a minute that they might be talkin bout us. hhahah, i bought both borneo bulletin and brunei times. Lawa gambar kami dalam borneo bulletin and though dalam brunei times nada, nama ku kena sebut. hahahah, which i think is soooo awesome.

COMPUTER HUNTING:

Finally, going hunting for my laptop, which I've been waiting for two years to arrive. Visited the many shops, but mostly two. hheheh, one dbwah bowling dekat athirah, and one opposite beseller kiulap. We also visited kiulap mall to check out the computer expo...lots of cool stuff, prob is, u need lotsa extra money for cool stuff. Sadly, only have money for laptop so we settled to get quotations from the two earlier mentioned shops only. In the end, we settled to either get a DELLXPSM1210 or a SONY VAIO C15 blablab sumtin. The specs kn sama, except DELL is a little more powerful. The VAIO is cooler lookin and slicker but it costs a little more and doesnt have free gifts. So, since the money doesnt come from its up to my lovely parents to decide yet again what is the most best for me. I dont mind this time round, asal blaptop.

Well, after laptop hunting, me and my dad kbowling where I was to meet up for a bowling session with Rudi, Amar, Zaimah, Mimie, Azam, Hayat, Putri and Qamarul. Dat afternoon was quite full, luckily the auntie dsana I was a bit biasa wit and she was nice, so we got lane 15-16. Azam and me played quite the same, Amar was surprisingly handal, banyak strikenya, awal2 eksen inda pandai main tu. Hayat inda main, balik awal. She borrowed me HOUSE season 1 and 2, THAAANKS HAYAT. The rest were....well, they played. heheheh. We had loads of fun, made loads of noise, talked a lot of talk, made a mess of the jollibee food. Rudi's chicken torpedo collided with my aloha burger dari hawaii, yatah, lambat kn sampai. Discussed about the farewell party next saturday and about MD's magazine which surprisingly came out already. Gonna collect mine on Monday and certify my certificates also on dat day.

Anywyz, dats basically saturday. I wud type more, but my eyes are very determined to close now. So to end things to this unusually long blog post:

To Aryf and everyone else concerned:

ULTIMATE FAREWELL/REUNION PARTY THINGY

Saturday 17th Feb 2006

Zaimah's Place

BQ and other crap

RSVP wit me or Zai

U can bring along other peeps but gtau in advance

"The night to start the rest of our lives"

-MSG DETAILS SOON

To Fidz:

Okay you guys, thank you fro taking time to read this post. I must go now and hibernate in my room. Gd nyte sweet dreams and +d440+ out!

just wastin time

You Are 60% Open Minded

You are a very open minded person, but you're also well grounded. Tolerant and flexible, you appreciate most lifestyles and viewpoints. But you also know where you stand firm, and you can draw that line. You're open to considering every possibility - but in the end, you stand true to yourself.

How Open Minded Are You?

90's Alternative: High Influence
Alternative Rock: High Influence
80's R&B: Medium Influence
90's Pop: Medium Influence
80's Alternative: Low Influence

Your Taste in Music:

How's Your Taste in Music?

Your Dominant Intelligence is Spatial Intelligence

You've got a good sense of space and how the world around you looks. You can close your eyes and "see" images. You have innate artistic talent. An eye for color and shapes, you're also a natural designer. Since you think in pictures, visual aids and demonstartions help you learn best. You would make a good navigator, sculptor, visual artist, inventor, architect, interior designer, or engineer.

What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?

Any last thoughts?

Any last thoughts?

Busy...yeah, I've been busy. Busy sorting out my life for the past month. You'd expect getting this scholarship would solve everything... but when ur finally there, u start to think. I'm going to be a petroleum engineer, what about all the other stuff I wanted to be? I'm going to Australia, what am I going to be living behind? I'm going to me tons of new people, am I going to forget u guys? I've been happy and sad. Thankful for the ability to carry on forward, sad for the fact that it cost me so much sacrifice. Dat's life rite? Dat's wat I've been telling everybody, hold back those tears and you'll get a chance to move on.

Last year was tough, so much things to endure, so much tears, misery and stress. But the fight was worth it I guess, I got all B's for my Alevel, its not the best but, it's good enough for shell. I'm going to be working for shell, I'm going to move to Seria, I'm leaving everything behind just like I wanted to. So, I guess I shouldnt complain. When u finally see the end of your goal, u start to think about the journey you've been to. Where I've been and what I've done and what I cannot do anymore. Things won't be the same and I'm scared to lose everything. hahah, last year I was complaining about how crappy everything was and now I'm totally wish it would stay that way. Like, what the f*ck!?

SIgh, yeah, life's an endless journey. You win some you lose some. The important thing is that I'm thankful for every single thing dat's happened so far. All the crap and all the...not crap things. heheh. I love my family, I love my friends, I love my life. Thank you for this wonderful journey. I'll treat u guys as soon as I can. Muahahah, cheers. +d440+ out!

p.s. : the nodding donkey pic is for you mahirah. hahah