Need...

...some will power.

Goodbye Sydney

XD

Two days~

Hey everyone, sorry for the lack of updates as of late. Been busy with the big move. That's right, I'm officially homeless now, living out of my suitcase, sleeping on the floor of my friends living room. It was a great struggle, a night of deprived sleeping packing and hauling big ass furniture and cleaning and scrubbing.

But we got it all done eventually and we parted ways with our coogee house and our memories there. We were sad to leave it, and proud to have cleaned it up so well. Well... we 'thought' we cleaned it up cuz apparently it was not enough for our landlord.


Ah anyone remember where the clip above came from? heheh, anyways my landlord called me the next day, and I thought she was calling to say I forgot something. Oh such hurtful words she said to me, to the extent that I almost cried that day. Yeah, I'm a pussy. We didn't clean the house well enough, "the house was an absolute crock" "I am very dissappointed with you boys, expected so much more from you"

Man, thought about that phone call the whole day. Never had anyone yell or scold me like that before. Spoiled my mood, and didnt even get to enjoy my trip to paramatta yesterday. Well, todays a new day, went over to the landlords place just now, but she wasn't home. Made my apologies to dear old archie, offered our help to clean up whats left. I feel alittle better to apologize in person. I felt more sorry for Archie (the landlords husband) than angela (landlord).

Now I'm at the UNI library, trying to print my etickets. My mood has lifted a little, hopefully i can enjoy my last few days here without worrying about my landlord and the coogee house. Gonna go to the zoo later, and hang around it the city. Can't wait to get hooome.

Home soon...

Today is my last day of studying, tomorrow is my last xam. My heads in the clouds and all I can think of is fooling around, shopping, playing video games, packing, and boarding that plane. But, i have to clear my head of those thoughts for now and concentrate on well testing... 60% of the course. Ughhh....

Well, coming home means I have to do attachment and suddenly I am reminded of what happened last attachment which does not make me look forward to it:

If you guys ever wonder what my life as an engineer will be like, just read dilbert, he describes our life perfectly. Thats it for now, wish me luck! XD

Cravings

I have an exam tomoro, dont judge me. :p

Quelqu'un ma dit

Ah....love the french language, how beautiful and soothing. To quote the Merovingian from Matrix revolutions:

Merovingian: French is the best language to swear in. [stream of curses]
Merovingian: It's like wiping your ass with silk.

A plus tard! <which means I want a plaster

Clarity?

Sorry for the lack of updates, actually made a string of video blogs but my laptop finally died on me and updating from my itouch. My laptop hasn't fully died, just the Internet function, can't connect and cAn't do shit with it except watch series and revise past year PDF files.

Things has been okay for me lately I guess. Still haven't kicked my habit, seemed to have intensified though. I chalked it up to the stress of studying but as my friend so clearly put it: you're addicted. Not proud of myself at all, but it eases the pain. Yeah, I'm being dramatic, but it works for me in some way. I'm not as restless and depressed as before. Instead of crying in a corner, I'm a stoned out Zombie. Which works better? I like the latter, cuz it makes me happy, even if it's just an instant. Yeah I don't know why I'm trying to justify myself here... Am I looking for acceptance? I shouldn't be... God I'm pathetic

Life is moving on for you I guess and I'm happy for you. Just wish you'd tell me what you're thinking instead of leaving me out in the dark like you always do. Protecting me or yourself, I never really know. Tired of being the one who tries too hard, wish you would too. I've done my part.


From my itouch~