Saturday, May 24, 2008
Friday, May 16, 2008
The ticking time bomb
I feel this huge weight over my shoulders. No, I havent been taking any pictures of ghosts. I just that I feel so lost right now. I've got one thing I've got right now thats keeping me afloat on this sea of missed opportunities and I think its blowing up in my face on a daily basis.
I'm tired of hoping. I'm tired of seeing the better picture or turning to look on the brighter side. It feels like I've shut myself in this dark corner and I don't know how to find my way out. Yeah, I watch loads of movie, youtube and cartoons. But, thats my escape. Thats the only way I get to forget about this life around me, by imagining some other life. Maybe I dream too much, maybe I should just give in to this sorry assed system that this world has made. I"m not a brave guy, I can't be what I hope to be, only what other people hope I would be.
Time is something we all don't have, and I hate it that we have to spend a major time of it proving ourselves to people. C'est la vie.
I'm tired of hoping. I'm tired of seeing the better picture or turning to look on the brighter side. It feels like I've shut myself in this dark corner and I don't know how to find my way out. Yeah, I watch loads of movie, youtube and cartoons. But, thats my escape. Thats the only way I get to forget about this life around me, by imagining some other life. Maybe I dream too much, maybe I should just give in to this sorry assed system that this world has made. I"m not a brave guy, I can't be what I hope to be, only what other people hope I would be.
Time is something we all don't have, and I hate it that we have to spend a major time of it proving ourselves to people. C'est la vie.
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
Picture overload
First and foremost, some late greetings are in order:
HAPPY BELATED 20TH BIRTHDAY TO YAMIN AND SALWA!
It's been really hard these past few weeks. Luckily we ended the misery of hard tests and rushed assignments with a good weekend. In honor of the birthdays of old man Yamin and old lady Salwa, we had a bowling outing at FOX STUDIOS and when we were done, a shopping spree at ESPRIT. Kudos to Wani and Salwa for the photos.
Actually, I wasn't planning on posting anything. I wasnt planning on doing anything after UNI today. I got my results for my french test and I didn't do too well. Starting going down the, what the hell am I doing here and making all the wrong decisions road depression cycle. When I got home, I just wanted to sleep, but my bed was itchy and I just ended up half asleep tossing and turning for an hour. Just ended up having a major headache. Things turned around when my mom called.
I was jerked out of my frustration itchiness moping mode when I felt this vibrations coming from the side of my bed. Turns out my phone dropped to the side and was ringing. The caller id read 'unknown' so it was definately my mom. I didn't have a clue why she was calling. I answered in a half sleepy voice. Her high chirpy voice flooded my eardrums. Half dazed, I asked her why she called me so sudden as we talked a few days ago. Turns out she was calling to tell me she has just recieved the surprise flowers I sent her for mothers day which I totally forgot about. Well, she called because the flower people called her and said the flowers I sent her were on the way to the house. She was happy and I felt really happy after that especially when she told me my dad was jealous and joked why I never got him flowers.
Well, the call ended short as she didnt want to keep me up as she thought I was sleeping. I wanted to go back to sleep but my mood was now neutral and I didnt feel sleepy anymore. Took a shower, had a small dinner, changed my stupid itchy bed covers and fooled around the computer and finally decided to post something. I recently switched my screensaver to my pictures mode and when it was playing I noticed tons of photos which I never uploaded. Here are a few of them, I am trying to upload more but blogger is just so slow.
Things have sure changed a great deal since I started this scholarship. Which I think I am really misusing right now. Heck, I don't really feel like I deserve it most of the time and I just feel like giving up. But, looking back at these photos, I keep remembering the reasons I am doing it for and the things I'd be giving up if I dont work harder. Well, here's hoping things change. +d440+ out.
HAPPY BELATED MOTHERS DAY TO MY MAMA AND ALL OTHER MAMAS OUT THERE!
HAPPY BELATED 20TH BIRTHDAY TO YAMIN AND SALWA!It's been really hard these past few weeks. Luckily we ended the misery of hard tests and rushed assignments with a good weekend. In honor of the birthdays of old man Yamin and old lady Salwa, we had a bowling outing at FOX STUDIOS and when we were done, a shopping spree at ESPRIT. Kudos to Wani and Salwa for the photos.
Actually, I wasn't planning on posting anything. I wasnt planning on doing anything after UNI today. I got my results for my french test and I didn't do too well. Starting going down the, what the hell am I doing here and making all the wrong decisions road depression cycle. When I got home, I just wanted to sleep, but my bed was itchy and I just ended up half asleep tossing and turning for an hour. Just ended up having a major headache. Things turned around when my mom called.
I was jerked out of my frustration itchiness moping mode when I felt this vibrations coming from the side of my bed. Turns out my phone dropped to the side and was ringing. The caller id read 'unknown' so it was definately my mom. I didn't have a clue why she was calling. I answered in a half sleepy voice. Her high chirpy voice flooded my eardrums. Half dazed, I asked her why she called me so sudden as we talked a few days ago. Turns out she was calling to tell me she has just recieved the surprise flowers I sent her for mothers day which I totally forgot about. Well, she called because the flower people called her and said the flowers I sent her were on the way to the house. She was happy and I felt really happy after that especially when she told me my dad was jealous and joked why I never got him flowers.
Well, the call ended short as she didnt want to keep me up as she thought I was sleeping. I wanted to go back to sleep but my mood was now neutral and I didnt feel sleepy anymore. Took a shower, had a small dinner, changed my stupid itchy bed covers and fooled around the computer and finally decided to post something. I recently switched my screensaver to my pictures mode and when it was playing I noticed tons of photos which I never uploaded. Here are a few of them, I am trying to upload more but blogger is just so slow.
Things have sure changed a great deal since I started this scholarship. Which I think I am really misusing right now. Heck, I don't really feel like I deserve it most of the time and I just feel like giving up. But, looking back at these photos, I keep remembering the reasons I am doing it for and the things I'd be giving up if I dont work harder. Well, here's hoping things change. +d440+ out.
Sunday, May 04, 2008
End of week 7
Twas week 7 the week of which I dare not speak,
where It's hardships and challenges reached its peak
Some people broke down and cried
while some just kept it inside
The world moves on,and the week passes
leaving bitter scars on the masses
half the semester has already gone
it'll be winter holidays before long
HOLY HELL, I'm so glad week 7 is over. Nonstop tests and assignments can take a toll on a person. Fortunately, only one more test next week, reservoir engineering midterm and nothing else till the end of the semester. Booya!
where It's hardships and challenges reached its peak
Some people broke down and cried
while some just kept it inside
The world moves on,and the week passes
leaving bitter scars on the masses
half the semester has already gone
it'll be winter holidays before long
HOLY HELL, I'm so glad week 7 is over. Nonstop tests and assignments can take a toll on a person. Fortunately, only one more test next week, reservoir engineering midterm and nothing else till the end of the semester. Booya!
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