Sigh...this computer is startin to get on my nerves. The explorer browser windows keep crashin and I have to keep typin posts over and over again. Anywayz, its hari raya adiladha so selamat hari raya, may allah bless u all. heheh, I got up to a rocky start this morning, woke up early but still missed sembahyang adiladha. This always happens u noe. I get up and get ready as fast as possible but i always end up waiting outside at the porch of my house with a blurred vacant expression on my face. My dad takes like forever and everytime we reached the masjid, org abis sembahyg udah. Its like this every year. Its kinda funny though, like a curse or sumtin.
Anyways, coincidently, its new years eve. I hav no plans watsoever 2nite. Hahah, I'm bored outta my mind. I really wanna spend this year not at my cuzs place or terms for once. C'mon u guys! Call me and invite me to yur stinkin BQ! HEHEh, i noe sum of u might be ravin at a private party or sumtin. GUess whos one of those people? Mr London UK, alevel speed track, jis boy FAUZI! Haha, just chatted with him a few minutes ago. Turns out he goes online every nite, which wud be morning brunei time. London has had an effect on the boy, hes now goes clubbin and ravin. hahah syiuk kali ah ravin new years eve dlondon.
Haha, look at him being cool and shyte. Main webcam and headset udah. Hahah, i miss da guy, he's still the same at heart and dats cool. Btw, we were talkin bout how I wont get to stay in brunei hall when I'm in ossie. Theres no fuckin brunei hall in ossie! So i'd prob be sharin with some orang puteh. Hahah, takut bbau share bilik, sal orang puteh kdg2 bhari inda mandi atu. Heheh, yeah sori if some of u out dere get offended, tapi benar kali ah.
We were tallkin about good old times and how stuffs have changed and missin all the smbians sci 1 in london. Hahah, told him he wont miss much, cuz if he stayed here, it prob be the same. We're all drifting apart as expected except for a few handful which I'm grateful. We miss the Bqs and reunions and partys. Wat the hell happened huh? had a conversation about this kinda thing a week ago with Din and aliffdo. They crashed at my house from 9 pm to 2am kali. Hahah, I was havin a BQ wit family and then got a msg from Din sayin he was bored and shyte. The guy just got back from indon with an XBOX 360 wit a whole set of games. I'm so freakin jealous, cuz I'm stuck playin an already outdated ps2, hahah. Anywayz, I asked him to chill at my place so he dropped by, aliffdo tagging along who btw, just got back from singapore, main bula national team. Haha, all my frens are doing awesome things, and all i hav done this holiday is staple and fold books, how lame is dat?
Was kinda havin a crappy nite, cuz of the friction between family members and my overcontrolling dad who acts like he noes all and treating me like a turd. Glad these two guys came. We started backtracking to berakas days and started comparing now and then. Oh yeah, it was christmas eve, hahah and we were sitting around till twelve santa clause hunting. Half expected the fat red guy to drop flamin out of the sky into my front yard. Sadly, it didnt happen.
Anyways, reminising is nice to do once in awhile. Helps open yur eyes and keep yurself feeling good noeing u've achieved and done so much. I get depressed so easily and I think its becoz I forget how good life is. I actually got emotional when my parents when car browsing for my sis with me tagging along. They want to get her an aston mini. I guess its jealousy acting up. I mean, she passed a driving test and they get her a car. They promised me a phone and a laptop and I never got those. Hahah, yeah I'm fuckin selfish but thats how I feel. I passed my olevel and alevel with the high greds they wanted and I get shit for it. Pisses me off sumtims. They keep making empty promises with me but when it comes to my sister...
Dat was yesterday btw. When I get depressed I start thinking about stupid things, and wat I didnt do to make life better. Regret builds up in me and I go into this state of mind where I just hate myself. By pure luck, mahirah caught me online and we chatted about the thing dat troubles me the most. She the first person to understand me so well. I guess the problems we both experience dunt differ much. She manages to giv me advice even though she going through a problem of her own at the moment. I appreciate her for that and hope dat things get better for her. Anywayz, I feel much better now. Thanks mahirah.
Ait, been talking in circles again and times up. Got some function downstairs so i better go. Oh yeah, fauzi has a new UK line- +447809624505. Add that to yur phonebook people. Heheh, catch u guys l8er. Happy advanced freakin new year to all that read this. God bless, may all yur dreams come true in 2007. hahah ciao!
