Piece of me

Listening to piece of me by britney spears on the radio. First time I've set up my radio since I came back to Sydney. Was getting pretty bored of hearing the same songs playing on my itunes. I'm loaded up on coffee and panadol right now and feeling pretty good. Seems that the panadol is the only thing thats keeping my stomach pains at bay. The last post was a 'quickie' pain-induced one, so sorry for that.

Well, its 2am, and I'm, THANK GOD, doing something about my UNI work. My heads cleared up now, guess my prayers yesterday afternoon got heard. I am slowly getting back to norm. Other than the stomach pains, the only thing distracting me right is my thoughts of...well.. 'someone'. A chat with a friend, though not intentionally, finally made it clear to me. I always get these feelings and foolish dreams of always trying to be with someone who clearly doesnt feel the same way. Funnily, this has happened a few times and the heart burns still feel the same. So... I'm moving on... again... I learnt my lesson for now. Instead of trying so hard to chase something so far fetched, I'm gonna concentrate on the present reality for now. Yeah, I'm a loner who expects to much. I love too much I guess, ceweh. XD

Hm...out of coffee. Time for a refill, I so effin glad i bought this coffee maker.

Glad another chapter closed,
after repeating itself once again,
feeling rundown and tired,
for making another useless plan

A deep breath I'll take
as I put the book down,
A new smile I'll fake,
as I move again on my own

A lesson learnt
A battle fought
Too much worrying on this plan
Tomorrow is always another day my friend

Stress-induced madness

Who would have thought that by merely changing the number of weeks in a semester from 14 weeks to 12 weeks can have such a profound affect. I mean, when I heard about it last year, I just shrugged it off, whats the big deal? Well, I've hit a wall. Seriously, I feel like I just was running so fast and bashed my head into it. Now I cant do anything right. I'm still trying to catch my breath and no matter how hard I try, I'll still drift off and zone out.

Its been 6 weeks, half of the semester is gone. The stress has built to a max and is visible on everyone. A few weeks ago, I burst a vein on my eye. I thought it was the experimental contact lens I was wearing, it turned out it was stressed induced. I walked around with a bloody eye for a few days. A few of my friends have already broke down and started bawling. Another friend, which I actually found quite funny, had a twitch in her eye that appeared out of nowhere and didnt stop for days.

I have this pain in my stomach, I don't know if its constipation or the runs but hell, its been bothering me for the past 3-4 effin days. I cant concentrate, I cant pick up a book and read it for more than 5-10 minutes. I can't sit on a chair and write no matter how hard I try. I have a midessions tests in next week and load of assignments due which I am making absolutely little or no progress on. I'm not even panicking, I want to panic, because if I panic, I'll do my work. I think I've gone a little funny in the head. I gonna gulp down some panadol and stomach pain pills to see if that'll have any affect. Sigh... I dont want to give up seriously. I just don't know what to do anymore. Hopefully, I'll be back to normal. My apologies to all affected. I'll try my best not to get in the way.

Quickie

A quick post for consistency. heheh, yup, so effin busy ryte now, loads of assignments due and test to study for next week. The work never seems to end. Gnyeh, not complainin, just realised half the semester has already gone by, which means winter break is not so far away. And I'll alwez have the weekend to look forward to. hahah, here are some pictures on what I've been up to, will be back soon guys. Cheers