All hail the weekend! Woohoo

As quoted from the dorky yet everybody likes him hero - Hiro Nakamura; "IYAAATAAAAAA!!!".

It's Friday, the start of the weekend, WOOHOOO. A little break from structured timetables and time squashing hecticness of the weekdays. Still gotta study and do assignments, but hey, at least I can sleep and wake up when I want to. Let's see, my mood is good ryte now cuz I just did my GEOS MAPPING test and I thought it went pretty well. Don't know for sure, but I definately will pass, AMIIIIN! This happy mood bubble won't last for long though, a few hours later I'm gonna have my MATHS MAPLE test. What is that you ask? It's doing mathematics on a computer test. Sigh.... I didnt think that anything was able to suck the fun out of using computers, but heloooooo maths. Haha totally didnt revise properly for that, my ozzie friends can quote with me on that. XD so my cherished readers, pray for me that I'll do well this semester. I reaaaaaally would appreciate it.

Ah....what else did I want to say. Owh yeah, gambar ku ada dalam surat khabar. huhuhu, inda plang nampak benar, a bit of my head, but hey, that's one sexy head no? Also, I know Mahirah's gonna flame me for this, ada dalam RanoAdidas jua, banyak lagi tu.. hahah, loving the free publicity. What? You think I'm vain? Huweh...your just jealous. hahaha. And I don't have to post much pics as all the links are at RAno and the bass-box webby. I'll post this one pic though, cause it shows of the semangatness of hari Raya in Sydney. What do you think?

Bah, ku kn makan dulu and belajar...ugh...MAPLE. Hope everyone anywhere is doing well. Miss you all loads, selamat raya and studyingg. Cheers, +d440+ OUT!

P.S; Lawakn my new layout? I'm awesome, tell me I'm awesome!!! IYATAAAA

huh...raya?

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, Maad Zahir Batin, Eid Mubarak and please forgive for all past wrongdoings to all Muslims. Another overdue post so let's just get on with it.

RAYA-ing in SYDNEY.
What's the difference with Raya in Sydney and in Brunei? Well for one, there's no annoying raya songs playing everywhere, except for Bruneian homes of course. There's no last minute wasting money shopping. There's no pressure to look good in front of 'certain' people. In short, Raya here is way toned down, in fact it is barely significant. Hahah, what would you expect being in a foreign country? I'm just surprised of the strength of the small muslim community here. Though small, it's still good to see all these many different people take time out of their day to get out get together to celebrate this day, pray and so on. All you need for a good Raya is, good spirit, good food and good people to be with. In Brunei it feels forced somehow, a little fake and more of a chore, so if some of you guys are wondering why I'm not getting so teary eyed or semangat for Raya, those are the reasons. Yes, I miss my family and friends, but there's no use repetitive complaining, it get's so annoying sometimes.

Daymn...blogger won't let me upload any pictures. Sorry you guys, hahah, maybe I'll post them at KITA SEDUNIA webpage. Just remembered I havent even updated my links yet. Huhuhu, need to update my layout too, getting bored with it. Alas, busy times lay ahead for me. So don't expect any burst of life from me until December. I got assignments and tests all through the next four weeks, followed by my finals. I'm trying so hard to study and do this all a little better. This course, though a pain in the arse if I have to say it, still is what I have to do. i don't think there's anyway to go back and change my choices...is there? Hahah, well, looks like I'm stuck. I don't what's worse, studying for four years for something I know nothing or have no enthusiasm about (I don't like oil and gas, more of a renewable energy person), or the fact that my whole like has been figured out during and after UNI. A desk job? A fucking desk job? god, I still dread this for some reason. What keeps me going? Well...my family I guess, that's the only reason I'm doing this. So they can lay off me for once. Pressure brabis lah....

What I wish for: People who appreciates people more, More time in a day, a world without Maths and chemistry, other than that, cheers, and see ya when I see ya.

THE SUNYINESS

Hey hey hey, Hadee here with a new post. Well, this is overdue, but happy fasting everyone. Phew, a lots been happening and I've skipped over a few events. Yeah, I went to the kunjung Ziarah thing in Sydney with his majesty, yeah I got the "let's not talk or tell anyone anything but hey people still found out" ampau, yeah i know the dirty secrets of the ampau giveaways where some people got even more of surprise if they're higher up in "the list", hey yeah, i went to the SPE dinner with a new fucking expensive wear once in a lifetime tux, hey yeah, I celebrated my birthday and my friends threw me a surprise party before I left to brunei, yeah, I went back to brunei and I've been in Brunei for almost two weeks. I would have posted stuff about all these things but i guess most everyone I know and are close to me know full well of all these stuff already. I dunt think anyone else reads this blog anyways.

I'm home in Brunei, yeah i got homesick and went home, my mom missed me. hahah, I am loved. Well, been feeling the kesunyiness in Sydney and thought things would let up more if I went home. But, now that I'm home.... well the kesunyianness didnt let up. hahah, probably got a little worse. It really nice to come home and hear this from your grandparents;

"Your home? tsk tsk, why didnt u stay in Sydney, your aunt stayed in UK during puasa and raya, siiiiiiigh"

It's good to see you too... bleagh, ah well, I came back cause I just got really sick of Sydney. hahah, maybe it was fasting month and me missing the wedding and family stuff. Ku balik pun... nothing much. I did get to send Mahirah off though.... got to say goodbye, wont see her again for a few years. Got to see alot of my old friends at UBD. It would have been more fun if it wasn't fasting and they didnt have classes. Hahah, I snuck into Mimi's maths tutorial. barutah ku faham MVT and IVT for calculus. Orang putih have a knack for making things a whole lot more complicated than it actually is.

Wished the UBD lecs can help me with my current session maths. i'm really struggling now, this semester just seems easy. I've been doing badly for lots of my coursework. i'm not good at anything, things are so much different than back in MD and Berakas. I lost support team, hahah, mahirah, pu3, fidz, mimi, rudi, Tak, Charles, Arif, Zaimah, Dini, aziz, all these people arent there to help me in Sydney. It's so hard to keep up it just reduces me and kills me, wondering whether I should have said yes when Sis j called those few months ago. Even right now I have these computing and material assignments which I've been trying so hard to do but I reckon I'd still end up with no results to show that hard work. I keep telling myself I'm not trying hard ENOUGH but.... can I even reach that level?

Sunyiness... the deafening sound of silence is all I wake up to these past few days. All my close friends are all busy or far away and I'm stuck in this rut. Thank god i'm with my family, I feel needed again. hahah, they havent changed one bit since I left, still bickering and doing stupid pointless stuff as always. You'd think they'd change for the better after I'm gone. This is a good and bad thing I guess. Two months of feeling completely useless was cured the moment I came back. Alas, this cant last for too long. Yeah....my mom wanted me to stay for raya, but I can't afford to miss anymore classes. it's my responsibility to come back and do my work. had an argument and she keeps hinting for me to stay, but I always answer jokingly and try not to look her in the face. hahah, I can't bare to see her cry and in the end I always get teary when I think of it too much.

So...I'll be back in Sydney by Monday most probably. I'm staying awake now (it's 12:30 Brunei time) to try to get my mats and computing finished. So far only brushed through a few of my Geography mapping exercises and havent touched my maths tutorials. Sigh...how did I let things get so bad. Wish me luck, and cheers.